So I'm here sitting on the computer per usual. My wife is watching a costly DVD box set collection of Sex in the City while I putz around on the Internet wondering if I can get away with looking at porn on the Internet and the gratuitous self-grope in the sake of manhood. I catch bits and pieces of the show when suddenly I hear a part, which says, "Here we found ourselves. Four women single for a night on the town" or some such bullshit who can tell, I have only see things from one perspective. I vaguely remembered the fact that one of the girls was dating some guy that could orally pleasure her in a way she had never been pleasured. They called him… Mr. Pussy. Now here inlays the problem. "Mr. Pussy," now be honest who would not want to be known as him, was so good they felt he had to be passed on to the next woman because he was too good to be with one woman. So if that was truly the "rule" then why was I married? Laugh if you will but maybe in my own special way, I kind of always considered myself a "Mr. Pussy." I've worked very hard and been trained by women that by all accounts should have been experts in their field. I take direction well, but better then that I don't generally need it. I'd like to think that I have approached it the way an artist would. Something to be molded and sculptured in a way to achieve maximum pleasure. Not maybe for myself but for everyone I thought should enjoy. So here is where it all falls apart. If I was truly "Mr. Pussy," then why was I married? Did some selfish woman take it upon herself to leave "Mr. Pussy out of the loop? To deny some poor woman the pleasure of a night with "Mr. Pussy" that she is willing to break some sort of womanly code, as to keep Mr. pussy from the clutches of another???

Or could it be that maybe, just maybe, I am not? Mr. Pussy?"

Not possible.

I'm working on a new journal.... So far it hasn't gone live (not real sure why) but it should be available here soon.

I'm not bitter today... at least not much. I've had too much fun reading this particular blog. I can't help it, the lady just makes me chuckle at times. Check her out if you haven't.

So where to begin today... Being the nerd that I am I sat up last night and ordered direct from Japan this little 2.5 inch radio control car. I know... I know... but I figure you have to have your fun somewhere. The thing is called a BitChar-G and it runs for like 2 minutes on a 30 second charge. We'll see what kind of fun I can have with it as I tool it around the office... I figure everyone will think it is fun or I'll get fired. Either way I still have a cool little car.

Main Entry: god
Pronunciation: 'gäd also 'god
Function: noun
Etymology: Middle English, from Old English; akin to Old High German got god
Date: before 12th century
1 capitalized: the supreme or ultimate reality: as a : the Being perfect in power, wisdom, and goodness who is worshiped as creator and ruler of the universe b Christian Science : the incorporeal divine Principle ruling over all as eternal Spirit : infinite Mind
2 : a being or object believed to have more than natural attributes and powers and to require human worship; specifically : one controlling a particular aspect or part of reality
3 : a person or thing of supreme value
4 : a powerful ruler

Merriam-Webster, Online Collegiate Dictionary

Amazing isn't it. How this simple phrase can divide a nation. I wonder sometimes at where it will all end. Can we truly live in a free society when neither side can decide on a definitive way of doing things? I see so much going on in the world and more importantly here in the U.S. and I wonder how much of my tax dollars were spent on making this court ruling. Let me start this off by saying that by all accounts I am probably an atheist. I want no one's religious beliefs forced on me but at the same time I feel I should never force my lack of faith on anyone as well. So where do we draw the line? At one point do we as a people stand up and say it's OK to live your life the way you want I will stand beside my Jewish, Muslim, pagan, atheist brothers and sisters and rise up against those who would harm my way of life. Unfortunately the people causing the biggest amount of harm on the American way of life is the Americans themselves.

For interesting insight check out an enlightening article on God in the U.S.: Here.

Machine Man

I have watched my shadow grow
Longer in the setting sun
Waiting for the word or voice
Waiting for the one

Hoping I can find a way
Of getting back to who I am
Looking underneath it all
Try to find the man

I thought I was

Circuits and wires are all that’s left
Of me where I should feel
Nothing but a ghost remains
There’s nothing left that’s real

I thought I was bigger than all of this
I thought I could somehow rise above
It seems I was mistaken
I’m not what I was made of

Bits and pieces fall and crash
And I just watch them fall
I would try to put them back
But I just don’t care at all

I am the machine
And the machine is me
Calculating logic
With a cold energy

away

Pulled away a again
Down that road once more

Thought I was doing so well
Thought I knew the score

I gave up
You gave in
Somewhere we both stopped caring

I stared off
You tuned out
No longer really living

Something Missing

I think there's something missing
Wouldn't you agree?
I think there's something missing
A little piece of you
and a little piece of me.

I'm solid and
Your hollow
Transparent
And
Opaque

Tell me what I don't know
Or at least what I can take

We could be such friends

A little piece of you
A little piece of me
Not a whole lot more
The rest we'll all leave be

Speak to me
Talk hard and fast
and in all CAPS
Feed my need and I'll give back

I promise

What can I be for you?

That hole is slowly closing
Filling at least for now

A little piece of me
Fits into
A little piece of you

At least for a while.

I think there's something missing
Wouldn't you agree?
I think there's something missing
A little piece of you
and a little piece of me.

I'm solid and
Your hollow
Transparent
And
Opaque

feel

There's a beast in the distance
Howling madly at the moon
Sometimes I feel his teeth at my neck
Drooling down my spine

I'd be frightened if I cared
I'd be scared if I wasn't so stupid

Starting
falling
back on yourself
The snake devours its tale

I was something once
I can't remember when
It was there before the box
Now it's gone again

I want
I want

I want so bad to feel again

Brave New World

Representation
Of Dis-information
A key stroke away

Clicking madly
Through a sea so sadly
Wasting every day

Buy and sell
A piece of hell
To get your personal Mecca

Pick a side
Then run and hide
From all the falling wreckage

I fear this brave new world at hand
A byte of emotion on demand
Getting closer together and father apart
Fiber optic orgies of the heart

I'd go outside but I'm so much safer here
I'd go outside but I'm so much better here

The digital trade
Gets my portfolio laid
Without the sticky mess

Who I am
Woman or man
Anyone can guess

Plug IT IN
TURN IT ON
SEND IT OUT

Turn it off

Touch me Touch myself
Then put it back on the shelf
Digital foreplay

Your pain can be
Relieved easily
It's just a boot away

Binary death
Silicon breath
Pull the cord and jump

Up and down
All around
From mortal man to lump

I fear this brave new world at hand
A byte of emotion on demand
Getting closer together and farther apart
Fiber optic orgies of the heart

My window to the world measures 15 inches
My window of opportunity measures 15 inches

PLUG IT IN
TURN IT ON
SEND IT OUT

Turn it off

Time Warner Cablevision and Roadrunner fast Internet access are the DEVIL!! Sorry for no updates in a LONG time but my friends at Time Warner felt I spent way too much time online and was kind enough to keep my connection down for around 2 months. To top it all off I upgraded to digital cable as well and the piece of junk NEVER worked! The technician left my house scratching his head and saying... "Hmmmmmm, beats me? I'll call in a work order for you" So for two months I fought with Time Warner and Roadrunner trying to get some if ANY customer service from them and found them to be rude unhelpful and just plain didn't care about whether or not I was able to get online or watch any channels, including local channels. Amazingly enough I was fascinated to see that they had no problem issuing bills and late notices for something I couldn't even watch to begin with??? What is wrong with these people? Are they so inept that they can't even comp service that doesn't work??? All I can say to anyone out there thinking of switching to a cable modem or digital cable is DON'T !!! Please for the love of GOD there are alternatives!!! Trust me I know.

BUT!!!!

All is not lost! Like a savior DirecTV and DirecDSL have swooped down from the heavens and corrected all my problems and as of yet I have not had anything go wrong (knock on wood) with my service. When I have had questions they have answered them, when I needed help they were there. Heck, they even showed up on time to install (actually early and called to see if they could) my system!!!! If you are looking for fast access I must say that so far my experience has been great and I would recommend them to anyone!! Good Luck
More later...